"Being a Christian is more than just an instantaneous conversion--it is a daily process whereby you grow to be more and more like Christ." -Billy Graham
I was reading the other day where women are around the age of 34 when they reach maturity and men are like 42 (that is a discussion for another time). I find this to be pretty accurate. I turned 35 this year and I feel so much stronger and confident in myself as well as my decision making process. Now one thing I have to add here is that I did not do it alone. I also have to add that there is also an exception to every rule. There are some 65 year olds that have the maturity level of a pre-teen. That is also a conversation for a later date. The point that I am attempting to make here is that God brought me to this place, and while I am not where I need to be, I am thankful that I am not where I used to be.
Spiritual maturity is a process. I was one to go through the motions of reading the bible, having my daily devotions, going to church, etc., but I truly did not have a real understanding of what was going on. The desire was there, but the process was in the early stages. I think a lot of times either people do not recognize that there is a process, they want to think that they are further along in the process than they truly are. or some of us want to rush the process. What we must realize is that everything will happen in God's perfect timing. We just have to trust and have faith until the process is finished.
Know that you will face many challenges in this life. God truly wants to refine us and make us whole. If you never understand or embrace the process, you will falter. People will make you feel that you are not worthy of the process because of your past. There will be times throughout the process that you just want to throw in the towel. Trust in the Lord every step of the way, and he will provide for your every need throughout the process.